Alright! I'm tied between a hippy and a slut! I'm gonna go with the hippie part!

table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td></td><td> You scored as Slut.

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Hippy		69%
Slut		69%
Nerdy Girl		50%
Goth		50%
Athletic Tomboy		31%
Loser		13%
Popular Bitch		6%
Preppy Girl		0%

What type of girl are you?!!
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You scored as Faerie. Faerie: Aren't you a cute little flying person? Faeries are earth spirits. They live among each element completely hidden. They have cousins called Pixies. Pixies however, are very mischevious. They enjoy tormenting other creatures for fun. Little pranksters.. I hope you never meet one. Pixies have a bad reputation for finding a creature and clinging to them until death. Faeries can be somewhat close to a Pixie, but mostly they are loving, playful, and carry with them a child-like enthusiasm for life. Hide among the pedals of a Daisy, you are a Faerie. </td> Faerie 84% Mermaid 67% Angel 59% Dragon 50% WereWolf 34% Demon 0% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!) created with QuizFarm.com

Date:	2006-01-23 16:51
Subject:	ugg...GRRR...
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off

Graaa!!!! I hate ex girlfriends! My boyfriend is having lunch with his ex and it makes me crazy!! I can't really yell at him because "technically" he's not doing anything wrong.....but damn it! I'm pissed! I'm going to take it all out on this stupid, ugly, slutty computer. Braaa!!!RAAA!!!(&*&(*&^^$%^$#@%&^% !!!!!*&(*&&^*&*&^&^$@#%*(%$#!!!!!! %$%^$ ^%#%$ *&^(*&*(& (*^%## $@#$#%^$^%&%&*^%^%$!!!!

*&%^!!!

Their going to kick me out of the library for that kind of language.

Well, at least my hair is cuter than hers!I got blond and purple highlights, It looks awesome. I stopped by to see them and suddenly she started talking about getting her hair colored......whore....oopps! Did I say that out loud and not in illegible random symbols?
I'll be better later. The evil jealous demon that lives inside me and survives off of pieces of my soul will go back to sleep. Good night.

Date:	2006-01-03 04:45
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

hehehe.... I've told my friends I would start smoking one day....

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Start Smoking. Get your resolution here

Date:	2005-12-25 11:42
Subject:	ooo lala
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick

I got kittens for Yule! They are so cute.Two little siamese tigers with bright blue eyes.

I finally saw the Dr. It was unlike any other psyciatric consultation I've ever had. Usually I go into a comfortable room with a big couch and comfey pillows while soft music plays in the background and the therapist tries to persuade me to talk about my feelings. This time, I walked into an office like room and sat in a chair across from the Dr.'s desk while he sat at his computer. He asked me why I was there, I told him, we talked about medication and he wrote me a perscription. I was in there for no more than 20 minutes. I started medication yesterday and I felt it all day long. Today, I did not feel it at all. I guess it didn't take long for my body to adapt to the side effects.

Date:	2005-12-12 17:11
Subject:	too much
Security:	Public
Mood:	stressed

I'm moving into a different apartment this weekend. Thats been super fun...yea...
Finals is also this week so in between moving and working, I had to get those done.
Also, one of my works caught fire this morning so I don't know how long it will be until that opens up and I can work there again. That was my main source of income and my other job has been cutting hours because no one wants to buy a smoothie in the winter. Rent is more expensive this month because I paid part the rent for one apartment and part the rent for another apartment. Somehow that came out to be more than either of the rents. Everything is poopy.
The good news is that I have been so busy that it keeps me distracted. I havn't had time to feel anything, so if I'm feeling like crap, I havn't noticed. I have an appointment for a head doctor on Friday, or at least I think I do. The lady was supposed to call back to confirm my insurance info but she never did and somewhere in the moving, I have lost the phone number and name of the doctor I'm supposed to be seeing.
damn it. I'm stressed. I'm going to get some chocolate now.

Date:	2005-12-05 16:18
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	rushed

Ahhh....TOO MUCH HOMEWORK!!! Make it stop! One more week and its all over....

I ran into someone that I have been successfully avoiding for over a year now. Well, I wouldn't say I ran into him, its more like he found me. He showed up at my work after someone had told him I work there. Its very hard to describe this person. I could tell you all the evil things he has done in his life and you would get the image of a very bad person. But if you met him in person for the first time...he would seem like the most understanding, commpasionate charming person. I've met two people in my life that the image they portray to the world is the exact opposite of the person they really are. Its easy to be fooled by this image because it is so convincing and seems so real, but I have to remind myself that actions speak louder than words. Seeing him in person for the first time in years was exactly what I remember him to be..he is so nice, so understanding and concerned about how my life is going. He says he is happy for me and even smiles such a warm friendly smile that almost makes me think he means it. He's not pushy, keeps his distance to let me know he's not going to try anything...he just wants to renew an old friendship. Yup...it all seems so real that I could almost forget that he is the type to stick something in a girls drink when she's not aware so that she will be easier for him. That is just one of the list of things he is known to do.

Date:	2005-11-29 13:36
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah

Thanksgiving was alright. I spent it with my mom, my sisters and all their little kids. It wasn't the same this year since I was a vegetarian. No turkey for me. I guess it didn't really matter since the turkey wasn't done when it was time to eat. No one ate turkey. Devin was in San Antonio with his family that day.
Last night, he set up a Thanksgiving dinner for just the two of us with five vegetarian dishes. He placed flower petals on the pool table and then glass over that. He set up purple candles and played light celtic music in the background. hehe....it was amazing.
I'm working a lot now. This is good, but it leaves me even less time for homework. Its time for me to go see a head doctor. I can't function when I feel like hell everyday. Being on medication is the last thing I want but I can't seem to find a way to help it naturally. Its affecting my dreams, how I feel when I wake up in the morning, I have too many stomach aches and headaches. Everything in my life is going well, now I want to enjoy it.

Date:	2005-11-22 14:35
Subject:	yeaaa
Security:	Public
Mood:	bitchy

The Renaissance Festival had finally ended. Don't get me wrong, its a lot of fun, but its also a curse...especially on my boyfriend. He has tried so hard to make it every weekend, even though it was digging him into a hole. I think he missed one weekend out of eight. During these past two months, his truck broke down twice, he sprained his ankle so that he had to walk on crutches and he's had surgery on his mouth twice. Everything in the world was against him camping at the Renaissance Festival, but he managed to still do it. He's completely broke and without transportation. He can use my scooter but the weather just turned very cold and wet, so that will not be very pleasant on him. Well, I'm glad its over for the year. It was fun, but very stressful. If only it wasn't such a necessity for him to be out there every weekend, he may just enjoy it more....just a thought.
Well, I'm still broke. I have two jobs, but the income is slow right now compared to the outcome. It doesn't help that Devin has his birthday in the same month as Yule. I'm thinking of saving up some money for the summer to come visit Sarasota.

Date:	2005-11-17 13:17
Subject:	what a lovely bunch of coconuts
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful

Ahh..relief. I have felt fine for the past two days. Waking up one morning and finally not feeling like I want to roll over and die is similar to the feeling you get when a painkiller kicks in and relieves your throbbing migraine that wouldn't go away.
Everything's brighter today, literally. Things even smell better. Its funny how when I get depressed, even my senses turn negative. Bad smells stand out.
Well, its gone, at least for today. Hopefully for the weekend. I have big plans.
Today and tomorrow are going to be a test of my stamina. I worked last night until 3 am, I woke up at 6 am for my other job. After that job, I came to school, after school I'm going back to my night job until 3am....then...I wake up at 6 am and go back to work. Super! Then I pack my bags and head out of town. I'm young! I can do it! Coffee works!

Date:	2005-11-14 15:13
Subject:	yet another day
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

blaa...things are the same today. Thank you for your advice, Miranda. I did the cleansing bath and it was very helpful. I've been working on my shield for the past few days. I had to add a spiket so all the built up negative energy can drain out of me. You are right about me looking for a reason to be upset with my boyfriend. I've been pushing him away, but I don't think it has to do with how I feel for him. I've been in relationships before where I wasn't in love but I didn't have a reason to leave them. I would cling to them when I was in a bad mood and become independent when I was in a good mood. It is the opposite with Devin. When I am feeling well, we are great together and happy, but when my mood declines, that is when I push him away. He notices and tries to reach out to me, but it doesn't help. I don't know why I do this, because him going away seems like the last thing I would want right now.
I'm trying to figure out why I have been so depressed lately and I have a couple of theories. One is that I am fighting some very, VERY strong maternal insticts. Every part of my being except for a little logical voice in my head says its time for me to start a family. I have to deny these feelings and listen to that little voice even though it is getting weaker and weaker. It hurts. Its not a posibility right now or in the near future. Devin is not even the tiniest bit ready.It scares him when I talk about those feelings. I understand now why no woman in my family has been able to wait past 20 to have a baby.
This would explain why I feel like pushing him away.
Also, I do feel like I am picking up on other people's emotions, like you said, Miranda. Everyone seems to be upset, espeacially Devin. He is so unhappy with his job, its affecting the rest of his life. This could be another reason why I push him away when I am down. He might be contributing unknowingly. I'm working on my sheild for this. Its a good one. I hope it works.

Date:	2005-11-09 17:49
Subject:	ewww...
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated

this sucks....everything sucks....I'm doing my best to look up. Grrrrrrr......
I'd scream but I'm in a library

Date:	2005-11-07 15:06
Subject:	ememem
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

I need a serious head remedy. The last week has been hell on me, but not because of any external situations. Its all in my head. I completly flipped out last Thursday night ( I won't go into details) and every since, its been pretty painful inside. I don't know whats going on...horomones, mood swings, going insane? I've been like this a lot lately. up and down, I'm fine for a few days and it returns. I know this has got to stop but I don't know what to do. I've been through this before but could never find a solution. I just have to wait until there is a major change in my life again. That always seems to clear things up for awhile.

Date:	2005-10-27 12:22
Subject:	confession time
Security:	Public
Mood:	guilty

I was bad today. I did something I shouldn't have and now I wish I hadn't. My boyfriend left his phone when he went to work this morning and I went through his call history and his text messages. Now I am stuck with what I saw, which in reality, proves no wrong doing on his part. But the way my brain works, evil little voices keep putting suggestions into my head. I know better than to be nosey, because that leads to suspicion.
hmmm...okay. To quiet the voices I will have to think this through logically, recalling the past month and how many times he has actually given me a legitamate reason to be suspicious, which is never. Actually, he has done some unexpected things that are more a credit to his faithfulness. He's a good boy.
Now, what lesson have I learned today. Stop being nosey....its bad.
Well, other than that little craziness...The weather has been completly awesome here. Highs in the 70's, cloudless skys, no humidity. Amazing. Going through that Houston summer has made this weather even more wonderful. Sarasota can get pretty bad, but I have to say Houston is worse, if you can imagine that. You might as well be swimming through hot water all the time.
Its perfect right now.

Date:	2005-10-20 14:11
Subject:	new day
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained

I've started a daily journal, hopefully to help me figure out whats happening in my head. Things get a little crazy up there.
I've went to the Renaissance Festival for the second time last weekend. I'm not going this weekend but I will defiantly go Halloween weekend. I thought that this regular escape to the woods for the weekend would do me some good, but I'm not so sure. Maybe its the people I'm around....again....I need my Florida friends for this one. Grr!!!
HEY EVERYBODY!!! Buy a plane ticket out here one weekend before November is over. The Texas Renaissance festival is worth it. I promise! HuGE!! So many costumes! It only cost 5 dollars to camp and they have a big drum circle every night with fire twirlers....They defiantly need some decent drummers!
COME! Be my buddy!!! Ya'll would get along with the friends I have out here! Really! People fly in from all over the country for this thing.

Date:	2005-10-13 13:24
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	numb

Occasionally I have these emotionally crippling days for no reason at all. This morning I found myself lying on the living room floor, crying. I don't have a reason to cry, and life is not hard for me but for some reason, it was next to impossible to pull myself up and make myself do the things I'm obligated to do. Life keeps going even when I really, really don't want it to. I think the hardest part is trying to find a reason to get off the floor. I did it though. I'm up and dressed, functioning in society, but don't talk to me or I might lose it again.
I know from experience that this will only last a day and tomorrow I will be numb again. I won't care. Life will keep rolling along.

Date:	2005-10-06 13:05
Subject:	fun fun
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy

Okay...I still have no job and the money is dangerously low....stupid hurricane. I had work scheduled for that weekend but everything was canceled, even the business party that was scheduled the following weekend. That would have been enough to cover my bills but now I have nothin! send me some money making energy please!
I guess thats the way it goes with me. I have a period of lots and lots of money and then a period of none. 7 years of abundance and 7 years of famine......sounds familiar....its okay..I save so I have somewhat of a backup plan.
The Renaissance Festival is taking place here in Texas. Two months long...Its huge! I spent the first weekend camping out there in the woods and I will probably be doing that a lot more.....considering I find money. grrr...

Date:	2005-09-20 13:22
Subject:	I've been tagged, I see
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

So, here goes....20 random facts.

1.Its my Birthday today!
2.I hate smoking and I espeacially hate dating smokers because I see it as a weakness to temptation
3.I used to cry and scream at the kids that liked to step on the bees in the school yard for fun. I spent a lot of energy rescuing them.
4.I'm still a vegetarian!
5.I have a hard time keeping in touch with people and the friends I still have are the ones that persist on being in touch with me.
6.I really really want to be pregnant more than anything.
7.I peirced my non exsistant belly button.
8.My favorite bed time drink is chamomile and lavender tea with milk, cinnamon and honey.
9.I always like to keep a cusion of a thousand dollars in my bank account. If I dip below that amount, I claim I am broke and stop spending money.
10. I am broke right now.
11. I really don't want to evacuate for this hurricane. I'd rather stay and take pictures.
12.Crying is the best stress relief for me but only if it is done while I'm in the presence of someone I'm really close to.
13.I'm attracted to guys that hide their insecurities with arrogance
14.I'm not very social but I don't like being alone.
15.I wish I was born into the American Indian time period. (before the european immigration)
16.I've avoided ever being seriuosly injured or sick, but I date guys that are very accident prone.
17. I only wear cloths because I'm required to by law.
18.Its very hard for me to be happy in this world but I try
19.I hate Houston.
20.When I am broke or busy, I eat one meal a day and never get hungry.

since I don't know twenty people.....I am tagging everyone on my friends list so if you read this, you are tagged!!